UPDATE/EDIT: T shirts can be sent to be received by may 15th only if you buy within the week- so do it now!!
I was finally there, I was going to feel better in a few short hours. I had answered at least 20 questions and was dressed in one of those cold hospital gowns. The huge mountain I had anticipated was before me,rising higher and higher in my head- how was I going to survive another several months of this? There is no going back now, I have to go through with this. I was going to go through 9 very long months of pregnancy, and it meant that I would be on the couch puking for the first half of it, unable to care for my first son as normal,barely able to wash my own hair because I was too weak to hold my arms up that long and then it should/hopefully get better to where I would be able to manage it enough to only throw up once a day, and then maybe twice a week. I knew I would get there, I knew in my head I would survive-but I just could not stand the thought of it.
A second nurse came to try to get the needle in my arm, here we go again- I had been through this before- I knew the drill, try to poke me a few times, then try a smaller needle, a few times and eventually after a 4-7 painful pricks the IV would be in, then once the very slow draining bag of fluids and medicine would be in, and I would feel good enough to at least eat that night.A friendly nurse talked to me (not knowing this was not my first go around) " Just think, by twelve weeks this will all be over:-)" I wanted to cry, to which my mother in law corrected her 'well, not for her, it lasts the whole pregnancy'. " Oh, my" She did not really seem to know what to say but asked about my child at home, was it a girl or boy?, how old? and then she said (which I can never forget)" was he worth it?". The thing is, from what i remember, I did not hear her say " wasn't he worth it!" as a statement, it was a question- " was he worth it?" It begged me to think, as a million memories like waves came through my mind- the most beautiful slide show. Any mom will tell you, you do not even have to think before saying Yes! Of course my child was worth it. I nodded my head, tearing up then burst into tears. God sent that lady to say that to me, to change my thoughts and to remember why I had choose this again.
There were a few more hospital trips- one of which I got a ultrasound,best mental health fix for a hg sufferer. There is no way to fully explain how dark this period of time can feel as you are walking through it, and you do come out of it. Thankfully for me I came out on the other end twice, with two very healthy amazing little boys, all women are not that lucky though. I would do it all over in a heartbeat for their heartbeat if I had to.
This is just one of my my days with Hyperemesis Gravidarum but there were many more similar. Regular care tasks of yourself are goals of your day. Getting a shower is so difficult- you are too weak to stand for 10 min straight, walking from one room to another nearly always results in vomiting,you have what feels like food poisoning(or hangover- so iv been told) 24/7, laundry, dishes, nothing will get done unless someone else does it, you can't rock your babies, read to your toddler, even sing to your children because you will vomit. You think you are literally going to starve to death, you are so hungry-but your body is rejecting food and water. Those are just a few of the physical aspects, but there are some very real mental problems- Depression and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder being the most common. You fear for the life of your child most days.You are left,even after the birth of your child with an intense fear of pregnancy, any time you feel nauseous it brings back all your memories. What I personally went through was what I would consider average/normal HG, many women have it much worse and live in the hospital for weeks- months or are at home with a nurse that comes to care for medications through PICC and IVs. Vomiting up 10-20 times a day is "normal" for this condition-but it DOES need medical attention.
"HG is a debilitating and potentially life-threatening pregnancy disease marked by rapid weight loss, malnutrition, and dehydration due to unrelenting nausea and/or vomiting with potential adverse consequences for the newborn(s)." hyperemesis.org
Where you come in:
What a depressing post right?! So here is what you can do, May 15th is the FIRST EVER Hyperemesis Gravidarium Awareness Day. It is means huge things to those of us who are and have suffered HG. In honor of May 15th the HER Foundation is selling t shirts- which you can buy HERE for only 10-12 dollars, you can also buy ones for those suffering,and babies of HG mothers. Please consider spending the 10-12 dollars and supporting awareness and wearing your t shirt May 15th. Or if you know someone who has or is stuggling- buy them a shirt. You can also just donate 10 dollars. Don't have 10 dollars? Share this post on facebook, google +, twitter, and pinterest.
I will be doing a giving away. If you do buy a shirt,or donate and get a HG wristband or keychain take a picture of it ON YOU or Your children and send it to me by May 20th and I will enter you to win a homemade gift, for every 5 people I will add and draw another gift for another person,if emails are 5 and under, each person will receive a gift. Sorry, US participants only, one email per family. Email your pictures to itsybitsylittleblessings@gmail.com or like and message me on Itsy Bitsy Little Blessings on facebook.
I have not decided on all the gifts, but they will be along the lines of burp cloths,pacifier holders,cloth wipes,crinkle squares,and if there is a large amount of emails with pictures- a "tester" cloth diaper- one that I have made that I will give and ask for feedback on.
To stay updated- like IBLB on facebook, left side bar has link
This is not my video, but it brings light to a bit of HG.
I was finally there, I was going to feel better in a few short hours. I had answered at least 20 questions and was dressed in one of those cold hospital gowns. The huge mountain I had anticipated was before me,rising higher and higher in my head- how was I going to survive another several months of this? There is no going back now, I have to go through with this. I was going to go through 9 very long months of pregnancy, and it meant that I would be on the couch puking for the first half of it, unable to care for my first son as normal,barely able to wash my own hair because I was too weak to hold my arms up that long and then it should/hopefully get better to where I would be able to manage it enough to only throw up once a day, and then maybe twice a week. I knew I would get there, I knew in my head I would survive-but I just could not stand the thought of it.
A second nurse came to try to get the needle in my arm, here we go again- I had been through this before- I knew the drill, try to poke me a few times, then try a smaller needle, a few times and eventually after a 4-7 painful pricks the IV would be in, then once the very slow draining bag of fluids and medicine would be in, and I would feel good enough to at least eat that night.A friendly nurse talked to me (not knowing this was not my first go around) " Just think, by twelve weeks this will all be over:-)" I wanted to cry, to which my mother in law corrected her 'well, not for her, it lasts the whole pregnancy'. " Oh, my" She did not really seem to know what to say but asked about my child at home, was it a girl or boy?, how old? and then she said (which I can never forget)" was he worth it?". The thing is, from what i remember, I did not hear her say " wasn't he worth it!" as a statement, it was a question- " was he worth it?" It begged me to think, as a million memories like waves came through my mind- the most beautiful slide show. Any mom will tell you, you do not even have to think before saying Yes! Of course my child was worth it. I nodded my head, tearing up then burst into tears. God sent that lady to say that to me, to change my thoughts and to remember why I had choose this again.
There were a few more hospital trips- one of which I got a ultrasound,best mental health fix for a hg sufferer. There is no way to fully explain how dark this period of time can feel as you are walking through it, and you do come out of it. Thankfully for me I came out on the other end twice, with two very healthy amazing little boys, all women are not that lucky though. I would do it all over in a heartbeat for their heartbeat if I had to.
This is just one of my my days with Hyperemesis Gravidarum but there were many more similar. Regular care tasks of yourself are goals of your day. Getting a shower is so difficult- you are too weak to stand for 10 min straight, walking from one room to another nearly always results in vomiting,you have what feels like food poisoning(or hangover- so iv been told) 24/7, laundry, dishes, nothing will get done unless someone else does it, you can't rock your babies, read to your toddler, even sing to your children because you will vomit. You think you are literally going to starve to death, you are so hungry-but your body is rejecting food and water. Those are just a few of the physical aspects, but there are some very real mental problems- Depression and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder being the most common. You fear for the life of your child most days.You are left,even after the birth of your child with an intense fear of pregnancy, any time you feel nauseous it brings back all your memories. What I personally went through was what I would consider average/normal HG, many women have it much worse and live in the hospital for weeks- months or are at home with a nurse that comes to care for medications through PICC and IVs. Vomiting up 10-20 times a day is "normal" for this condition-but it DOES need medical attention."HG is a debilitating and potentially life-threatening pregnancy disease marked by rapid weight loss, malnutrition, and dehydration due to unrelenting nausea and/or vomiting with potential adverse consequences for the newborn(s)." hyperemesis.org
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What a depressing post right?! So here is what you can do, May 15th is the FIRST EVER Hyperemesis Gravidarium Awareness Day. It is means huge things to those of us who are and have suffered HG. In honor of May 15th the HER Foundation is selling t shirts- which you can buy HERE for only 10-12 dollars, you can also buy ones for those suffering,and babies of HG mothers. Please consider spending the 10-12 dollars and supporting awareness and wearing your t shirt May 15th. Or if you know someone who has or is stuggling- buy them a shirt. You can also just donate 10 dollars. Don't have 10 dollars? Share this post on facebook, google +, twitter, and pinterest.
I will be doing a giving away. If you do buy a shirt,or donate and get a HG wristband or keychain take a picture of it ON YOU or Your children and send it to me by May 20th and I will enter you to win a homemade gift, for every 5 people I will add and draw another gift for another person,if emails are 5 and under, each person will receive a gift. Sorry, US participants only, one email per family. Email your pictures to itsybitsylittleblessings@gmail.com or like and message me on Itsy Bitsy Little Blessings on facebook.
I have not decided on all the gifts, but they will be along the lines of burp cloths,pacifier holders,cloth wipes,crinkle squares,and if there is a large amount of emails with pictures- a "tester" cloth diaper- one that I have made that I will give and ask for feedback on.
To stay updated- like IBLB on facebook, left side bar has link
This is not my video, but it brings light to a bit of HG.
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